I am his mother. Mothers are meant to protect and help their children. Why couldn't I do that? How did I not know the state of mind he was in?
The funeral was on what would have been his 30th birthday. In between is my birthday. I wasn't very enamoured of birthdays anyway but now, I count it a blessing if I can get through the day without any mention of it. I know it's not very logical, but I don't welcome cards and certainly not presents and this seems to be difficult for some people to understand. One friend even fell out with me over it, but while I don't wish to hurt anyone's feelings, I am hanging on to the right to deal with these few weeks of the year as I wish.
No cards, no presents, no flowers ... please.
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Thinking of you at this time, we met online through my own loss of a Son.....my Son's life was taken in a Road traffic accident by a Motorist breaking the Law.Understand about Birthdays, it was 4 days before my own, also Christmas for me, as it was 14th December. It is now 15years,for me, and hopefully time does heal a little.
Aileen x
Thanks for your comment, Aileen. Yes, I certainly do remember 'meeting' you online. Glad to hear from you again.
Beautiful sentiments, Jenny. I wish I'd known him. {{hug}}
Thinking of you. There's nothing more that I can say.
Thanks, Dale and Helsie. I know there is nothing anyone can say or do but writing here helps me.
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